my ramblings.... pay attention


this picture makes me so happy because it reminds me of our hugs and i love love love our hugs more than anything. but its most defiantly not the only thing i love. I will promise you one thing as long as you do the same in return. i will never leave you alone. that's something that i can promise forever. and thank you so much for dealing with my insanity because everyone knows i can be weird and over dramatic and ocd but its me and you don't want to change any of it and i appreciate that about you. there is one thing i ask of you, i am
absolutely one hundred percent horrible at telling everything i am thinking so always ask because i need you to know because i am not a mind reader but neither are you so you also need to tell me what you are thinking always. no bottling things up. k? k. and always know i love how passionate you are about certain things as much as i wish you weren't because it affects me but i respect that you are passionate about certain things and i have to deal with that. also i love that you would never ever cheat on me and i appreciate that because well that just sounds like a ton of ice cream and crying for me at least. i want to hold you in my arms forever so please don't make me do something drastic because its my dream to spend forever with you. and i appreciate that you are slowly helping me deal with all the stupid details of my past and past relationships thanks for being patient. also thank you for trying so hard lately. i'm about to tell you a secret so listen. i never wanted to be treated normal i want to be treated  like i am the most amazing person you have ever talked to or seen. flowers help with that. seriously. i love them. i whine and complain a lot yes i act like a child sometimes i want and need sympathy. you'll have to learn to deal with that but i also love to laugh if you have not noticed so and i want to spend the rest of my life with you happy as can be, and i need a camera to document it. oh and if you don't mind i like pda i think it shows you love me and don't care who sees it. also when i deny you i promise i'm not being mean i am saying try harder stupid so do it. one thing for future reference i want a kiss every single morning to wake up to it would make me happy.