food for thought.
You're going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times, but in the end it is always their actions you should judge them by. It's actions, not words that matter.
Dear College,
Well frankly college you are a bitch i hate you and i don't even really know you.
you are mean, you cause me to work way too hard, you prevent me from
having free time, and sleeping in. I mean seriously why cant you just be like high
school where i just go to class do minimal amount of work then smile leave and
receive an A. then when i decide i am bored i walk into the counciling office and
have them change everything, just to shake things up a bit, and keep it
interesting. come on it'd be great if you could do that one thing for me.
love, Tay
you are mean, you cause me to work way too hard, you prevent me from
having free time, and sleeping in. I mean seriously why cant you just be like high
school where i just go to class do minimal amount of work then smile leave and
receive an A. then when i decide i am bored i walk into the counciling office and
have them change everything, just to shake things up a bit, and keep it
interesting. come on it'd be great if you could do that one thing for me.
love, Tay
Monday Pinning
Yeah i dont really have that much to say about the above photos. Frankly the last one pretty much sums up my day...sooooo yeah.
Happy Thanksgiving
I am grateful for the following:
You because you are the person who deals with me, and helps me through everything . I am grateful for you because you are the sweetest person i know and my best friend.
You, because you are the greatest dad in the world, you have been there with me my entire life and taught me so many valuable skills, plus you are witty and i appreciate that very much.
You, Kryston because you understand me and my boy problems, and you are the greatest friend ever. I am grateful for you because you have always been there for me.
You, Alexis because frankly we hate all the same bitches and we have the best witty banter in the world, and we can shop together in the little boy section of old navy, buy star wars shirts and only gain respect for each other. we can go forever without talking and still be best friends
You, Bella because frankly you are adorable.
<self explanatory.
You, witty banter because frankly its great.
You, Jess because you are my big sister i grew up admiring you and wanting to be you. You have made me into the person i am today. You were always there when we had those family issues, and i am so grateful to have such an amazing sister.
I would like to also add my brother and my mother to this, but i lack a picture so i am grateful for my brother for showing me that everyone deserves a second chance and everyone has hiccups in life but that doesn't mean that they are bad people, you have showed me so much, and taught me so much, you too mom you are an amazing person, you put up with so much, and you have taught all of us so many valuable lessons. i love you both so much.
You because you are the person who deals with me, and helps me through everything . I am grateful for you because you are the sweetest person i know and my best friend.
You, because you are the greatest dad in the world, you have been there with me my entire life and taught me so many valuable skills, plus you are witty and i appreciate that very much.
You, Kryston because you understand me and my boy problems, and you are the greatest friend ever. I am grateful for you because you have always been there for me.
You, Alexis because frankly we hate all the same bitches and we have the best witty banter in the world, and we can shop together in the little boy section of old navy, buy star wars shirts and only gain respect for each other. we can go forever without talking and still be best friends
You, Bella because frankly you are adorable.
<self explanatory.
You, witty banter because frankly its great.
You, Jess because you are my big sister i grew up admiring you and wanting to be you. You have made me into the person i am today. You were always there when we had those family issues, and i am so grateful to have such an amazing sister.
Monday Pinning
Never in a million years would i get a tattoo but these are pretty crafty, not going to lie, this is what i have found on my weekly session of pinning, and frankly i would not judge a single one of these individuals. they obviously are somewhat creative and/or witty. so props randoms.
Yo Mom,
I would love this gift from you. this is all i have ever wanted for the past two Christmases and all my birthdays.
it is a coolpix L120, in black its only $249, you can save that by Christmas. But for realzies this would make the greatest gift on earth please oh please!!!!
it is a coolpix L120, in black its only $249, you can save that by Christmas. But for realzies this would make the greatest gift on earth please oh please!!!!
Dear Life,
Hey life, hows it been? I have been a little stressed out because you are moving by way to fast, i would deeply appreciate it if you would slow down and let me figure a few things out. I really love what you have done for me in the past, and all that jazz. I am happy to spend my future with you as well, but frankly i am a little scared for you to move on and have me stuck here worrying and being immature, and young. I am done with high school in 23 days, i start college in January and i move out in July....this is it, this is the end of my high school life, i'm told to think about you a lot, and i do, but for the most part i am still confused as to what i am supposed to do with you. I am scared of you and what you will hold for me in the future, I wish i knew how things would turn out, but i never will, as much as i wish i could plan everything that you are going to throw at me, we both know i cant. So please just be gentle. I would really appreciate a response soon.
Thanks,
Taylor.
Thanks,
Taylor.
Monday Pinning
so as of recent i have been planning out my future extensively, like college and that whole package, not going to lie i am super excited but also sad, this is the end of a large part in my life, something that everyone told me to enjoy while it lasted, but me being me said " oh please, i just need to grow up and move on to a new part of my life!" boy was a mistaken, this will suck it will include being responsible, and all that other grown up stuff, but like i said before it is a whole new stage of my life and i am excited to start college, get married, and have a family, and it also happens to be the time that everyone is pinning wedding things on pinterest so that is what my monday pinning thing will be about :)
Optimistic!
Sad that we had to come to this but I think it will be great! Remember the golden rule, we all should follow it, we both will. This means you get no kisses from me either however.. So good luck :) We got this!
so....
We have issues, and a lot of them. I really think this will work for us, i am excited to be able to feel that joy i had in the first few months of this, and i want to learn to accept you, because i see how it kills you when you have to pretend to be someone else, so for now we're just dating....well not yet but we will start on saturday :) i'm already happy and smiley like i used to be i am excited to start new and fresh, i am ready for all of this, and i hope you are too.
Gratitude.
It's a bit early but I have found something I am truly thankful for, Hope. The hope you have given me is the greatest gift I have ever received.
Forever yours,
Haden James Goebel
this would be me in all of my shining glory.
but this is also what i look like as i'm neglecting my research essay, research power point, and my research website, ha you that's right not just one simple measly essay. 3 freaking research things to do. i have vaguely started my website, and power point is totally open, so that's a start.....right? Oh well we have roughly a month left to do it, so i have quiet a while to procrastinate.
Since second quarter of school started i lost all that straight A motivation, it all started when i walked in Mrs. Threets office, and she told me i was failing work release.... seriously dude, work release? its because there is only one assignment to turn in for that class and it is your hour worksheet, and i turned it in and hour late so its an automatic fifty percent off which meant i was failing that class. F my life. so from there on out i gave up on high school.
i really need you to come back to me soon motivation, because i have the ACT to take and colleges to apply for. please please please :) thanks.
Monday Pinning
Ha! sorry but this really is what i was looking at in pinterest today....but honestly look at them how could you not absolutely be in love with them. mmmmm. just saying. :)
Far from over
*Note it helps to listen to some music I suggest: All or nothing (not for the music but the meaning), and perhaps "in my life" by the beetles.
These past three weeks have been... well. what can I say... A living hell? Its hard to explain how I feel at this point because I don't know what went wrong. I went back to my old ways of being sweet (with a little off color joke every now and again), caring, always wanting whats best for us, and more importantly knowing whats really important. I have decided that the thing I want most in the entire world, is the old Taylor Lee Brown I fell in love with last winter/spring. I remember that we always thought of the other first, we always had each others best interest in mind and I think that is why we flourished so well. I loved it when the worst of our problems was not being able to see each other. Even when I was to blame it wasn't because we lacked compassion it was because we had so much. I know that I drove you to this point and I think I could have permanently destroyed this relationship by not talking to you about our problems and trying to spend time away from you without talking to you about it. I'll take the blame for everything. I know you don't feel bad and I know you don't feel sorry for me when you say some of the things you do to me. I just hope you understand that I wouldn't have stuck it out this long if I didn't believe what we had before was real. I want to be that guy from the movies you have always wanted, even if its jonah hill, I want to be myself but the self that you fell in love with. You are the world to me and I don't know what to do. I'm lost in a turbulent sea with nothing to keep me afloat save the hopes that started this relationship in the beginning. Please take time to think about where you want this to go as I have. I know that we are both young and both have a ton of things to accomplish in our lives. I know you think my interests are stupid. I know you think that you want to be able to be free to date whomever without me to tie you down. I know that I want to be able to pursue my interests without ever having to hide them from you or lie to you. To that I say remember the day I came home from Minnesota. I knew that in that moment I had waited for something amazing. I may not be the most mature person on the planet (even my grandparents tell me every day that I'm incompetent) but there are a few things I understand pretty well. One is that no relationship built on lies and half truths and no trust will ever go the distance. I want this relationship to go the distance. Even if it means struggling with you through college, struggling with you through my years of graduate school, and biting and scratching our way to whatever goal we could have in the future, I know that there is no one else that I'd rather do it with than you. You were once my best friend, you were my confidant, my trustee, as I was yours. I want to go back to those days.
Forever yours,
Haden James Goebel
TL;DR- I love you lets rekindle what should have never died out.
These past three weeks have been... well. what can I say... A living hell? Its hard to explain how I feel at this point because I don't know what went wrong. I went back to my old ways of being sweet (with a little off color joke every now and again), caring, always wanting whats best for us, and more importantly knowing whats really important. I have decided that the thing I want most in the entire world, is the old Taylor Lee Brown I fell in love with last winter/spring. I remember that we always thought of the other first, we always had each others best interest in mind and I think that is why we flourished so well. I loved it when the worst of our problems was not being able to see each other. Even when I was to blame it wasn't because we lacked compassion it was because we had so much. I know that I drove you to this point and I think I could have permanently destroyed this relationship by not talking to you about our problems and trying to spend time away from you without talking to you about it. I'll take the blame for everything. I know you don't feel bad and I know you don't feel sorry for me when you say some of the things you do to me. I just hope you understand that I wouldn't have stuck it out this long if I didn't believe what we had before was real. I want to be that guy from the movies you have always wanted, even if its jonah hill, I want to be myself but the self that you fell in love with. You are the world to me and I don't know what to do. I'm lost in a turbulent sea with nothing to keep me afloat save the hopes that started this relationship in the beginning. Please take time to think about where you want this to go as I have. I know that we are both young and both have a ton of things to accomplish in our lives. I know you think my interests are stupid. I know you think that you want to be able to be free to date whomever without me to tie you down. I know that I want to be able to pursue my interests without ever having to hide them from you or lie to you. To that I say remember the day I came home from Minnesota. I knew that in that moment I had waited for something amazing. I may not be the most mature person on the planet (even my grandparents tell me every day that I'm incompetent) but there are a few things I understand pretty well. One is that no relationship built on lies and half truths and no trust will ever go the distance. I want this relationship to go the distance. Even if it means struggling with you through college, struggling with you through my years of graduate school, and biting and scratching our way to whatever goal we could have in the future, I know that there is no one else that I'd rather do it with than you. You were once my best friend, you were my confidant, my trustee, as I was yours. I want to go back to those days.
Forever yours,
Haden James Goebel
TL;DR- I love you lets rekindle what should have never died out.
Being Human
One thing I have learned over many years is that once you find what you want, take it and never let go. I've been trying my hardest to try as hard as I can to not let go of what I want most but it always seems that it is the one thing that is going to elude me for the rest of my life. I've experienced high school, and its shitty, then I found you and I started enjoying everything that high school has to offer (i even attended a dance BLASPHEMY). Now things seem to be coming full circle for me. In the beginning of this relationship when i found out that you actually were interested in me I was skeptical. I didn't know if I was even interested in you because of having been rejected by you prior. I gave it a shot and everything I thought I wanted in a girl I found in you. When you are yourself you light up my days, it made me want to be a boyfriend, I wanted to do everything for you. I want to do everything for you. I know some may say that you should live your high school life because it never happens again, but to them I'd ask if they had met their significant other in high school would they have made the same choice? I would do anything to have the old taylor back. If it's what you want then we can be the happiest two people can be. Know that I'll always love you no matter what decision you make. I may not be the guy for you but you are the girl for me. I'm sorry that you might not feel the same way. If I'm what you want then I'll be here for you. I love you.
Forever yours,
Haden J Goebel
Forever yours,
Haden J Goebel
awkward and awesome thursday
Awkward:
- as i was driving to my friend krystons house i saw a guy under a lamp post just sitting there staring at his dog, while his dog smelled a small patch of grass then on my way home i saw him standing in the same spot. I said "i feel ya man!" totally not realizing my window was down, he looked up turns out it was my old math teacher from 10th grade...
-The mass amount of texts i have been getting from people with awkward auto corrects in them.
lev: "oh hey taylor wanna bang later?"
me: what?
lev: BANG
lev: oh my gosh i meant Hang! i promise!
-I got out of my car and a truck surrounded by guys all turned and stared at me. All. the. way. to. the. front. doors.
-Chris O'mara. thats all.
-walking around a corner almost tripping over a kid sitting on the ground, there was no one else in the hall and he said "nice tits." It was a looooonnnnnggg walk to my class on the end of the hall.
-An army recruiter came to my class and was in the middle of a speech about america and its greatness when the kid behind me decides to ask "do they drug test you in the army?" the Sargent had a come apart and continued to glare at him the entire class. but i sit in front so he was staring at me. i sunk low in my seat and kept my head down.
Awesome:
- over the weekend we went stargazing. i was on pinterest and there was a picture in the bed of a truck snuggled up in a million blankets. so i invited kryston jake and haden so we went to an empty lot and stargazed. then the cops showed up. buz kill
-me and haden are what i like to call beef jerky buddies. i get beef jerky once a week. nuf said.
-deciding to be healthy. i feel great.
-during halloween we go to the mansion on south dixie dr. and they hand out obscenely large candy bars. (dont worry this is pre diet)
Wednesday six.
well these pictures are from my tuesday morning but i enjoyed it so i thought i would share. Per usual i was not attending school so i met haden at Bishops for breakfast, while there we discussed normal things (we are that boring couple that has the same conversation every time we are together) later in the breakfast, or brunch at this point i decided that i was in the mood to become healthy so i told haden he would have to do it with me, and toensure that he did it with me i made a healthy contract and made him sign it. the terms are:
no soda
no candy
no unhealthy snacks
no unhealthy meals
workout 4 times a week
run a mile 2 times a week
portion control
then we signed it.
the final picture is of my nails i decided to paint my nails white, per usual, then i got a little fancy and slapped another color on there, a dark blue. i felt accomplished, until i forget i painted my nails and smudged them all. oh well i learned my lesson, stick to being plain and normal
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