THE END
Sometimes i think most of what i say on this blog is for my benefit, to make me happy, to remind me that i should be happy with you, and to make myself think we can be happy together. Because frankly you do nothing of the sort, you constantly put me down, you are never with me so i am sitting here at my house writing about us, and i think being together in the future isn't really possible. I post things when i need to be happy, but its all a lie, i'm not happy our future is dull, and youre not around to see any of this happening. you take me for granted and i dont know what to do but for now i am done with this blog because its full of false hope and dreams.
my bucket list so far
1. Finish an entire coloring book
2. Have a white Christmas
3. Own a pair of super hero underwear
4. Back pack through Europe
5. Visit Saint Basil's Cathedral
6. Participate in polar bear plunge
7. Visit Puerto Rico
8. meet the buried life cast
9. Go on a coffee date
10. own a beach house
11. throw a dart at the map and go where ever it lands
12. Get married
13. Be on the show cash cab
14. Learn to scuba dive
15. Visit Italy
16. Own a wardrobe I love
17. Surf on a Hawaiian beach
18. Visit Britain with you.
19. Kiss under the mistletoe
20. Learn fluent French then spend a summer there
21. Go and entire week with no technology.
22. Ride the London eye
23. Receive a promise ring
24. Paint something on canvas
25. Visit Vancouver
26. Cover my bedroom walls with lights pictures and lyrics
27. Not be single on V-day
28. Meet Bo Burnham
29. Visit Maldives
30. Go white water rafting
31. Have sex in the shower.
32. shop in Paris
33. make the perfect rainbow cupcake
34. Take a trapeze class
35. Road trip to Canada
36. Chop down my own Christmas tree
37. Help kids in Africa
38. Own may pairs of toms
39. Open a cupcakery
40. Hold a baby panda
41. Camp on the beach
42. surf and ski in the same day
43. Go on the largest roller coaster
44. Kiss in a snow storm
45. Have a family of my own
46. Be a stay at home mom
47. Join a bowling league
48. go sand boarding
49. Dance under the Eiffel tower
50. Eat healthier
51. Try star bucks coffee
52. Fall in love in new York
53. Grow and apple tree
54. Become a pastry chef
55. Visit Bali
56. Wear converse on my wedding day
57. Own a macbook
58. Go to Lego land
59. invent a cupcake
60. Celebrate Mardi Gras in New Orleans
61. Own a dream catcher
62. Design my own home
63. Visit Jamaica
64. Go skydiving
65. Own an Iphone
66. Receive a Hogwarts acceptance letter
67. Own a wedding ring from Tiffany& Co.
68. Win the lottery
69. Have a walk in closet
70. Get one red rose
71. Get chocolates on V-day
72. Make a wish at the trevi fountain
73. Own a pair of white ray bans
74. Become a model
75. Wear a beautiful wedding dress
76. live in Carmel
77. Dye my hair a crazy color
78. witness a miracle
79. Go to a Coldplay concert
80. Go to the cheesecake factory in phili
81. Be a good parent
82. be proposed to in a place that has meaning to us
83. Stay at a bed and breakfast
84. build my dream home
85. throw a suprise party
86. Own a jeep
87. Make out with someone with pop rocks in my mouth
88. Love you until I die
89. attend a red sox game
90. Eat escargot in Paris
91. walk on the great wall of china
92. Dance with my dad at my wedding
93. Try ever Ben and jerry’s flavor
94. Crowd surf
95. Live in France
96. Ice skate in central park
97. Own more Nikes
98. Put a piece of gum on the wall in Seattle
99. Try a cupcake from George town cupcakes
100. Set lanterns off at my wedding
101. Eat spaghetti lady and the tramp style
102. Swim with a whale
103. Own a Chanel purse
104. Hold a koala
105. Ride a camel
106. Own a pair of cowboy boots
107. Move to new Zealand
108. Carpe diem
109. Make homemade ice cream
110. Try everything on the menu at a restaurant
111. Wear heels to prom
112. Live in Boston
113. Try funnel cake
114. Kiss someone at the top of the eiffle tower
115. Make a perfect omelet
116. Be able to walk in high heels
117. Wear a corset
118. Go on a cruise
119. Slow dance in the pouring rain
120. Buy a pair of white shoes to doodle on them
121. Attend a super bowl
122. Get engaged
123. Swim with a sea turtle
124. Take pictures of all the important things in my life
125. Try a macaroon
126. See the morning glory pool
127. Find out how many licks it takes to get to the center of a tootsie pop
128. Make jam
129. Make a quilt
130. Stay in the ice hotel
131. Own a nice camera
132. Spend new year’s in time square
133. Visit every major land mark in the us
134. Have a perfect valentine’s day with someone I love
135. Build a blanket fort and my first apartment
136. Have my grandparents at my wedding
137. Eat a connoli in Italy
138. Go parasailing
139. Get tickets to Ellen DeGeneres show
140. Have someone make me breakfast in bed
141. Go on a road trip
142. Study abroad
143. Attach a love lock to a bridge
144. Swim in a fountain
145. Skinny dip on my honey moon
146. Have a baby fall asleep in my arms
147. Go on an ice cream date
148. Find a four leaf clover
149. Have someone confess their love to me in a crowded room where everyone can hear
150. Own a husky
151. Milk a cow
152. Get kissed under a waterfall
153. Have a giant water balloon fight
154. Have a food fight
155. Have twins
156. Step foot on all 7 continents
157. Plant a tree
158. Go on the sky deck in Chicago
159. Visit the walk of fame
160. Drive through route 66
yeah just saying,
It's a beautiful night
We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby
I think I wanna marry you
Is it the look in your eyes
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares, baby
I think I wanna marry you
Well, I know this little chapel
On the boulevard we can go
No one will know
Oh, come on girl
Who cares if we're trashed
Got a pocket full of cash we can blow
Shots of patron
And it's on, girl
Don't say no, no, no, no, no
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
And we'll go, go, go, go, go
If you're ready, like I'm ready
'Cause it's a beautiful night
We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby
I think I wanna marry you
Is it the look in your eyes
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares, baby
I think I wanna marry you
I'll go get a ring
Let the choir bells sing like
Ooh, so what ya wanna do?
Let's just run, girl
If we wake up and you
Wanna break up, that's cool
No, I won't blame you
It was fun, girl
Don't say no, no, no, no, no
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
And we'll go, go, go, go, go
If you're ready, like I'm ready
'Cause it's a beautiful night
We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby
I think I wanna marry you
Is it the look in your eyes
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares, baby
I think I wanna marry you
Just say I do
Tell me right now, baby
Tell me right now, baby, baby
Just say I do
Tell me right now, baby
Tell me right now, baby, baby, oh
It's a beautiful night
We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby
I think I wanna marry you
Is it the look in your eyes
Or is it this dancing juice
Who cares, baby
I think I wanna marry you
We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby
I think I wanna marry you
Is it the look in your eyes
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares, baby
I think I wanna marry you
Well, I know this little chapel
On the boulevard we can go
No one will know
Oh, come on girl
Who cares if we're trashed
Got a pocket full of cash we can blow
Shots of patron
And it's on, girl
Don't say no, no, no, no, no
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
And we'll go, go, go, go, go
If you're ready, like I'm ready
'Cause it's a beautiful night
We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby
I think I wanna marry you
Is it the look in your eyes
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares, baby
I think I wanna marry you
I'll go get a ring
Let the choir bells sing like
Ooh, so what ya wanna do?
Let's just run, girl
If we wake up and you
Wanna break up, that's cool
No, I won't blame you
It was fun, girl
Don't say no, no, no, no, no
Just say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
And we'll go, go, go, go, go
If you're ready, like I'm ready
'Cause it's a beautiful night
We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby
I think I wanna marry you
Is it the look in your eyes
Or is it this dancing juice?
Who cares, baby
I think I wanna marry you
Just say I do
Tell me right now, baby
Tell me right now, baby, baby
Just say I do
Tell me right now, baby
Tell me right now, baby, baby, oh
It's a beautiful night
We're looking for something dumb to do
Hey baby
I think I wanna marry you
Is it the look in your eyes
Or is it this dancing juice
Who cares, baby
I think I wanna marry you
Remember,
About a month ago I put a post it on my mirror saying remember what he does for you.
Sometimes I take you for granted, and sometimes I forget what an amazing person you are and all that you do for me in my life, so to help me remember I put that on my mirror. Every morning I wake up and think about you and all that you have brought into my life, and how you have changed me for the better.
This is tough, but no one ever said it would be easy being in a relationship is a give take situation, and we both have to pick our battles. I know I care about you and don’t want to lose you so I am trying to always remember that you are my best friend and you have done so much for me and I am very grateful for that.
You are an amazing person with such a bright future, you are funny, an amazing athlete, and absolutely brilliant. I am glad you chose to spend that future with me.
No matter what, we can do this, we will make it through the challenges life throws at us because I believe in us. As long as we remember that we are good together and we both benefit each others lives in so many ways, and should be grateful for each other. No matter what happens I will be here for you.
Never give up on something you really want. it's difficult to wait, but more difficult to regret.
Mornings
It is mornings like these that you are going to have to learn to appreciate, 7:00 AM messy bun, long sleeve shirt, sweat pants(more than likely going to be yours, ha sorry!!) and you are required to make me apple cider. If you can accept me in my morning state then we will have a very blissful relationship.
So here is to all those lovely mornings in the future that i am more than excited for. :)
part 8
decor on the tables is important, because it gives me and excuse to put more random ish some where and use more mason jars of course
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