THE END

Sometimes i think most of what i say on this blog is for my benefit, to make me happy, to remind me that i should be happy with you, and to make myself think we can be happy together. Because frankly you do nothing of the sort, you constantly put me down, you are never with me so i am sitting here at my house writing about us, and i think being together in the future isn't really possible. I post things when i need to be happy, but its all a lie, i'm not happy our future is dull, and youre not around to see any of this happening. you take me for granted and i dont know what to do but for now i am done with this blog because its full of false hope and dreams.