The first night we had been dating I was excited. Everything was new. I had the most beautiful girl I had ever met interested in me. I was willing to anything and everything to make you happy. It showed because this beautiful girl had decided I was the guy for her.
This first night away from you has been terrible. I feel like something big is missing in my life and I can't replace it. I know this might sound corny or weird but this missing piece really hurts me. I know you want me to be less attached the way I wanted you to be not so long ago. However being attached isn't what I'm feeling right now. I freaked out yesterday because I lost the biggest part of my life and didn't get a chance to say how I felt about it. I wanted to talk you out of it. Instead I made it worse. This first night I've realized after two hours of stargazing, a long walk around santa clara, and the hour I have managed to actually sleep that you are too good for me. You deserve someone better then me. But I believe that I can be that guy if you let me. I wish you and your family would give me another chance to make this right before I truly do lose you. I guess I'm just recording my thoughts with these posts but It's only because you don't want to talk to me about them. I really just want my confidant back.
Forever Yours,
Haden Goebel
